After eight months of waking up with my first thought being, "must post to Instagram immediately," I stopped posting for two weeks. I just woke up one morning a few weeks ago and just didn't feel like doing it. Every part of my mind and body said, "Eh," so I didn't. I thought to myself that going one day without posting wouldn't hurt, no one would notice (and let's be real, you probably didn't give too much thought to this matter this entire time).
Then the next morning came. Same thing. I woke up, my first thought was that I should probably post because I didn't the day before. And again, I just really didn't feel like it.
Not going to lie, every single morning during these two weeks the same exact thing happened right when I woke up. It's kind of saddening now that I reflect on it, how that was (and still is) the first thing my mind goes to and frets about when I wake. But once I made the decision to not go forward and post for that day, it opened up so many doors for me. I felt free, almost. I felt slightly more independent and free to do what I really wanted to do.
In these past few weeks, I have made the effort to be more mindful of how I am feeling and what aspects of my everyday life (a) bring joy to me, and which (b) serve as stressors. Though routine is often good to put into place, sometimes we get too deep into routine and lose sight of what is best for ourselves.
Posting daily on Instagram had become one of those stressors.
So what did I do about it? I simply took a break. And boy, do I feel good after doing so. To be clear...I didn't completely give up social media altogether for this simple change in mood to happen. I still used Facebook daily, still scrolled occasionally through Instagram, and still pinned like crazy on Pinterest. But taking the routine out of posting on Instagram made such a positive, optimistic change in how I was feeling.
What have I been doing with my newfound extra time that used to be spent finding curated images/organizing them into the perfect grid during my evenings, and brainstorming captions for posts first thing in my mornings? Glad you asked, friend! I have been...
- Doing 10 - 15 minutes of yoga/just sitting still every day
- Getting back into my long-lost habit of reading before bed to slow my mind down
- Binge-watching Orange is the New Black (and finished it sadly...currently in limbo between Netflix shows...)
- FaceTime-ing my mom a LOT
- Making ornate sausage, spinach, and egg scrambles in the mornings
I feel like I pressed a reset button. I feel calm, relaxed, and more like myself than I have in months. And by no means am I trying to advocate for you to drop social media after reading this, but I DO want you to realize and remember that you always have a choice. You always have the option to eliminate life's stressors from your daily routine. Some may not be as easy to eliminate as others, but there is always that choice.